elizabeth grigg - the other fourth meal

I am just livid that my weblog is not fixed and perfect in every way. It seems so cruel that I would work so hard and still not be at the finish line. Here is what I know is broken:

- The comment filter does not work. Lets in junk. A nightmare. Yes, it's set to 10.

- The main webpage does not show posts. Or, at least, it does not show posts when I expect it to.

- The RSS feed does not work in google reader. My feed is not the only one with this problem. However this is cold comfort.

All that aside - the real reason I'm writing is I had a day off last week. It will go down in history as the day off. I don't usually get days off. That's probably a good thing because I have been doing the tired-mom thing all weekend. Who knew that was coming? The good news is I am eating my vegetables. We had a gorgeous radish salad with the king crab tonight and the wine. The kids love the king crab (from grocery outlet, so cheap!). However that's all I'm up to. I mostly sleep and read HP.

The real thing that is happening is I am at a crossroads. It is called the "soul's leap" in the solutions work I am doing. I am working on facing the essential pain of the human condition. The unfair limits of it. Facing this will help give me security, that the human condition will continue to be a bother to me and I can work through it anyway. Sulking will no longer be an option. It has come to my notice that 99% of what I voluntarily do is sulk because I cannot face this pain. I want this to change. A few more days off and I may be there.

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